i think

Everything is a choice. You create your path. You choose to leave. Or to stay. You learn a lot of things from a lot of sources, some you agree to, some you don’t. A few of which have a profound impact on you. But no matter how profound, it will still boil down to your choice: what are you going to do about this learning? You’d hear, or read, heck—even realize by yourself, that a lot of the things you do are wrong. That there are things in your life that just aren’t giving you true happiness. You’d realize that if you do one thing more often, you’d be more fulfilled. You’d realize that if you’d do less of something else, you’ll be a little more proud of yourself. You’d realize that if you stop doing something altogether, then your life will be back on the right track.

BUT when will you act on these realizations? When will you start doing more of the more important things in life? When will you lessen those things that give you temporary happiness? When will you quit doing what ultimately just gives you more pain? When are you gonna do the right thing?

You know you’re being stupid. You know that God is not proud of you. Hell, you’re not even proud of yourself. There is a difference between knowing and doing. And that’s what you lack: the action part. You’re too chicken. Too afraid to lose what you have now—is it even something that you actually own? Too afraid to let go of the temporary happiness thinking that you won’t be happy in the end. You think you’ve finally found your happiness. Then why are you crying? Why are you not proud of yourself? Why are you constantly scared of the end? Why the hell are you writing this??

Wake up. Let go. Move on. And most importantly, take the first step. It has always been your problem. Taking the first step. How many people have told you that the first step is just what it takes for you to get to your destination?

TAKE THE FIRST STEP. And do it soon. Before you lose sight of your destination. Before you drown in your own stupidity and naivety.