i think

It’s October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year’s come and gone
And nothing’s changed at all
Wasn’t I supposed to be someone
To face the things that I’ve been running from

Let me feel
I don’t care if I break down
Let me fall
Even if I hit the ground
And if I cry a little, die a little
At least I know I’m in, just a little

I’ve become much too good at being invincible
I’m an expert at play it safe and keep it cool
But I swear
This isn’t who I meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll over me

I wanna be someone
I wanna be somebody
Who can face the things I’ve been running from

It’s October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year’s come and gone
And nothing’s changed at all…

Have you ever experienced meeting someone and there was a *snap? A feeling towards that person that you cannot just explain? And then you realize that maybe there really is a connection between you two because you end up being close.

Now, it doesn’t have to be attraction, or even love at first sight—I don’t believe in the latter, in the first place. That person doesn’t have to be the most attractive among the people you meet at the same time, either. It’s just—there. That feeling that you can’t explain. And even without exerting effort on your part, you still end up closer to that person than to anyone else in the group. This is one phenomenon I can’t understand, let alone explain!

It happened to me a couple of times or so, and the sad thing about it is that it’s always “bitin.” I have three days, or even one term, and that’s about it. And what’s sadder is the fact that all of them are already committed. So any potential of romance is no longer possible, as heightened by the fact that you really did spend very few moments together. TOTALLY NOT ENOUGH!